Colors of Spring

I love the springtime! I love the way freshly cut grass smells, I love the sunshine, and I love all of the colors. The BLUE sky, the GREEN grass and trees, the PINK azaleas, the YELLOW pollen...oh wait. So the YELLOW I don't love so much...especially on my BLACK car. But yay for this pretty weather!

Radio Romance

So I've decided there's nothing like a (partly) sunny drive home from work on a Tuesday afternoon. Sunroof open and speakers blaring...Tiffany, Debbie Gibson, Cyndi Lauper, and Paula Abdul. Who cares what drivers think as they pass by while I'm bouncing around in my seat to the tunes "Radio Romance" and "Electric Youth" and singing at the top of my lungs? Not ME :)

Contentment

The last year has been very emotional for me. I have had serious highs (trips to Boston, Canada, and Pennsylvania, to name a few) and some serious lows (sleeping, eating, working, and living on the sofa for days at a time). I have cried more tears than you can imagine. I have made myself sick from crying and worrying. I have ached, inside and out, in a way I never thought possible. After the first few months of my "situation", as I tend to call it, I thought I was fine. I travelled, spent time with friends, and only got REALLY upset every once in a while. Around January, I think things began to sink in. I didn't feel like I could get up and go. I didn't feel like I could make it through the day. Everything hurt - my heart, my whole body. I felt like the life drained right out of me and there was nothing left. I cried all of the time, I felt miserable, and I didn't feel like doing anything...

Then today I noticed that I have been feeling different lately. For a few weeks now, I feel like things have slowly been improving. I'm taking care of my house and myself (I finally got back to the gym and no more sleepovers on the sofa). I'm having more good days than bad. Maybe it's the sunshine and being able to get out, but I am beginning to feel happy again. I'm not saying I don't have my moments - I almost broke down crying while cleaning the floor today and I'm not exactly sure why - then after a minute, I was fine. I am feeling like myself again. And this is definitely a good thing.

By the way, I would have never gotten through the last year without a fabulous family and great friends. People I could call to come over when I was really upset, people who offered to help me financially, people who took care of me. Thank you. I love you all.

Productive Day!

I'm feeling good today. When I feel good, I get a billion things done. After an 8-hour work day and a trip to the gym, I was still energized enough to clean the house. I vacuumed, cleaned the hardwood floors, scrubbed the bathroom, mopped the kitchen, cleaned out the fridge (taking out each shelf and scrubbing!), and cleaned the kitchen sink. I actually think the scrubbing was a better workout than the gym! Now for a shower, dinner, dessert, and curling up on the sofa with a book!

Happy Tuesday! :)

March Highlights

Here are some highlights from March:

* Off for a SNOW DAY on the 2nd!

* The fabulous Barton-Festa wedding weekend in PA

* Reading "The Sunflower" by Richard Paul Evans - one of my new favorite books!

* Australia coming out on DVD - I'm totally obsessed with Hugh Jackman

* Pizza and cheesecake for Leslie's birthday before Bible class

* "I Love Lucy" and "Bewitched" - there's nothing like those classic tv shows!

* Beating Mama at Scrabble on the 22nd (we play at least twice a week and I only win about twice a year!)

* Starting my new 2nd job at the library